12.08.2011 20 °C
Sometimes it takes a cathartic experience in order to see clearly. Last night was a major argument, an explosion of all things kept bottled inside for months and months. I believe every set of parents - at least the ones that stay together - go through this rock bottom point before they can begin to rebuid and restore themselves and their new relationship. This morning, I feel like I am emerging from battle, a phoenix rising. I am seeing with new eyes, this life, this person. I can again feel things that I had closed off from experiencing, as my emotions came tumbling out like stones turning in a fast-moving river. They are tumbling, tossing, becoming smooth like river rocks as they bounce up against the surfaces of my heart.
I am reminded of an old well-used philosophy quote, by Nietsche, likely the most relevant philosopher for today: "That which does not kill us only makes us stronger" When life gets difficult, when sentiments pour out that cause you to ache to your core, this is when a small portal opens and faith gets stronger.
It has been a difficult stretch for our relationship. What is important is to keep believing in each other, to keep focusing on the best outcome, and to continue to show up and participate in your life. This life is such a beautiful journey - we have to move through the tough times with grace and strength, and embrace the good times with all you can. After a darkest night, that is when love comes shining through.